When I was 21, I experienced a serious attempt of demonic possession. What does this mean? I was attacked by what felt like a panther digging its claws deeply into my back and thighs. My whole body had been taken over. I was frozen in panic and unable to move a muscle. I was barely able to breathe or think but knew with certainty that if I could not at least move a muscle it would be the end of me. I had to, at least, move a finger! Help me!!!!! I screamed silently. I had no voice. I used every ounce of will I had within me to exert power of movement in my body. And then, finally, my finger moved a fraction and feeling came back into my body. Oh my God, I was freed from it.
I believe there are dark forces that will use serious tactics to thwart the progress of an up and coming light worker. Most particularly, one who was marked at birth to be a Shaman might pose a significant threat to the dark forces of the universe. Doctors have reported that x-rays have shown an extra bone in my back since childhood. Until two years ago, I was unaware that the extra bone was one of the signs of a Shaman. When I discovered this my life started to make a lot more sense.
This first serious brush with the dark forces is not something I regret. It was an important crossroad in my life that made me stronger and determined the spiritual healing course my life would eventually follow.
Possession attempts continued infrequently for over 20 years but were conducted by less destructive forces than that first episode. I was a little less paralyzed each time I was physically & spiritually attacked. I became fighting mad and was always left with feelings of fear and confusion. How is this fair? I have experienced nothing more frightening, confusing and discouraging than these attacks to my personal life and well being.
I had other significant challenges in addition to the ongoing spirit possession attempts.
- My bed began shaking at night when I was a pre-teenager. Someone or something was trying to get my attention at an early age. The bed shaking went on for decades but never seemed threatening, just creepy. I now understand that the cause of the shaking was from supportive, consoling spirit entities. Try telling that to a twelve year old!
- I had recurring nightmares, not often, but over many years. It was always the same theme of being invaded by terrorists. I did eventually uncover the name of this terrorist late in my present life but it was uncovered through the guidance of Spirit – not modern psychology.
- The sensitivity I’ve experienced throughout my life has been the most challenging aspect of my nature to try to adapt to in the world around me. There has never been a time when I haven’t felt different from everyone else and protective of my sensitivities; to sound (loud noise), to vibration (negative), eyes (light), skin (rashes), food (allergies). Loud or sharp sounds are the most abrasive to my sensitive nature. Ambulances & loud rock n roll music send shock waves through my body that cause temporary feelings of disorientation or dysfunction.
All of these things have seemed like curses at times and made adaptation to life, social skills and relationships a constant challenge. Living in my head was confusing and frightening throughout the decades, but I learned to be a competent actress and behaved sanely most of the time. I hid behind a long-term alcohol problem to soften the continual blow to my sensitivities and to avoid facing problems. I was full of self-doubt and afraid of intimacy in relationships because I had no idea who I was. I was so afraid of having my psychology found out that I couldn’t even face myself!
No one that I knew of had such crazy problems. I couldn’t talk to anyone – what kind of doctor or psychologist do you go to in the 1970’s, 80’s or 90’s for help with possession attempts, shaking beds and terrorists invading your dream world? Any professional would have wanted to medicate and/or institutionalize me.
While I avoided traditional doctors I did come to realize that I needed help. I realized that many if not most of the possession attempts were enabled by my weakened vibrations or negative aura. I would have fared much better in life if I had been able to get myself headed in a positive healing direction earlier in my life. It wasn’t until my late 30’s and 40’s that I began to accept that I needed psychological help and began serious study of self-help therapies and metaphysics. It was going to take a lot of work and some years but at least I was headed in the right direction.
In the meantime, I worked and plodded on. I had created a long term career that was one of planning and controlling inventories and production lines. This was work that was inharmonious to my nature but gave me a feeling of control over some part of my life. It was the only part of my life where I felt I had any control. But it was high pressure, stressful work that stifled my creative nature and made me extremely unhappy over the long haul.
At the start of 1999, I was at a very low point in my life and was at home extremely ill with the flu. I was lying on the living room couch feeling sicker than I had in years. I just couldn’t live my life this way anymore and had reached the point of soul sickness. As I lay there I just gave up, completely surrendered, and a swirling pink light floated through my body and inner vision filling me with waves of loving peace. I had a knowing that this was Spirit loving me, tending softly to me, consoling me. My eyes filled with tears, I was so moved by the tender sweetness of this light. And I knew it was time.
It was on this day that I made the decision to stop running away from my soul purpose and to give my life over to Spirit full time. There was no other way. It was time.
The next ten years of my life were devoted to my mental, emotional and spiritual healing and resulted in the creation of my first book Guide Lights – Attune to Your Angels And Spirit Guides – Begin To Heal Your Life And Move Toward Your Soul Purpose. In Guide Lights I share the light work techniques, personal growth processes and natural magic we may all learn to heal and strengthen our mind, body and spirit.
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Important note: I understand that while my sensitivity is what made me susceptible to invasive possession attempts, I acknowledge that Karma is the motivating force charting my course. As difficult as it may be to consider – I may have plagued others with possessions in previous incarnations. And I understand that darkness is a necessary polarity to light and a natural part of the working order of our universe and of our spiritual growth. This understanding has come to me through my own spiritual growth. In summary: I am not, nor have I ever been, a victim of the dark forces. Life is perfectly balanced out in the overview.
Many of us need to look beyond traditional therapies offered by modern society for solutions to our problems and seek the natural cures of Spirit. In many cases (as in mine) it is the only answer offered for what ails us. We must listen to our hearts, dreams and our intuitive voices to know when to reach out to our angels and spirit guides to help us find our way.
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My best friend showed me several of his paintings one day. When he pulled out this one he said he didn’t know what it meant. I saw the message clearly and he gifted me with the painting that day. The stairway leads up to an attic that symbolizes spiritual self and growth. The bird represents Spirit and offers to guide us forward in the candle’s illumination of the staircase. “Follow me. I’ll guide you and light your way.”
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Painting by Joseph Birdsong www.josephbirdsongart.com
